I've been feeling so creatively zapped the past few months and what's worse is that I know it shows. I can't put my finger on it specifically but no matter what I do it's been hard to will myself to make something basically because I have, for one reason or another added this unspoken pressure onto my shoulders that if I am going to use my rare, precious free time to make something than it has to be perfect. Completely unique and original, photographed and made into a tutorial, be featured on craft gawker and adored by pretty much everybody…ha! Wow that's probably a little more revealing than I wanted to be but hey we're all friends here and I am in a creative slump so I am letting it all hang out like a sloppy glue gun.
Truthfully blogging and crafting has taken on a different shape for me mentally and if I am honest I sort of miss the old days. The days were I let it all hang out about my dire need for a fresh faced style after a mortifying shoe shopping trip when my second born was just a few months old (read about that here)…the days were I would share about how I stuffed some ugly dried roses in a jar and shared a mediocre picture of them to my friends online because that's what inspired me during nap time..I wasn't really worried about the numbers or the promotion of it all. I really have always been bad at that. I miss the days when a bunch of us kind of all just jumped in together and started searching for the beauty in the everyday and called it Ten on Ten, not because it was the best name in the world but because we wanted to work together on inspiring each other to do our days well in whatever shape and form they looked…I loved that season so much.
I still love blogging but the creative juices ebb and flow - I just hate it when I get fearful of not being enough, not producing enough good content, not having the most instagram followers or whatever. Is this making sense? Anyways this morning Levi asked me for a pom pom to glue onto a face he was making and it all of a sudden spurred my heart on to figure out how to make the loopy fork version because I have been wanting to for so long and never really had the time.
These took me like ten minutes and so far have been a ton of fun to play with. I don't know what I am going to do with them when I am finished…maybe just give them to my six year old to glue onto things or stuff em in a jar but all I know is it just felt good to make something out of nothing for no reason. I felt inspired again and I loved it!
Stacy and I had a long talk yesterday about creativity in the age of social media. Feeling deeply passionate about both but struggling in that balance of how not to find our identity wrapped up too tightly in how it's all "suppose to look". We are just missing the old days of blogging when it was all a bit less polished and more about sharing from our hearts. For the next week or so I think I am going to just try posting about what's going on in my brain as I juggle four kids and a husband who is deeply passionate in ministry. Giving myself freedom to have fun here and not worry so much about what everyone thinks, you know what I mean? Does any of this resonate with you? I would so love to hear your thoughts…feeling kind of vulnerable but really wanting to push forward and share freely like I use to!
Also I am willing to post a tutorial on how to make these little fork pom poms if anybody is interested just let me know…hoping you're feeling inspired in some way today!
ps. they kind of look like Seahawks pom poms :) can't wait for the game Sunday!