I haven't taken hardly any photos the past two weeks. I haven't been on email much or even some of my favorite social media sites. Instead I have been quietly considering so many things on my heart. On New Years Eve I was having coffee with Kristen and as we were reviewing the holiday season and what the new year has in store I confessed to her that I felt like I have been on "pause" the past twelve months. 2012 brought us many new, wonderful things most notable our adorable baby boy, Zeb who is just the biggest gift all the way around.
But when the Christmas season began I realized how uninspired I have been. I didn't unpack even half of our decorations and I felt a bit almost embarrassed at the way our home made me feel. Please do not miss-hear me though we are truly blessed to live in a wonderful house (not ours but we rent from family so it's obviously a great situation!) But I haven't put my stamp on this house at all really. Most advice is to hold off and not put too much elbow grease or money into a rental space since we would hope to move one day soon and own our own home again. But realistically that dream is not very near in realization. Truthfully making ends meet is hard enough let alone saving for a down payment.
Kristen looked me in the face and said "Rebekah, I believe we are called to bloom where we are planted. I think you need to dive in with your whole heart and let down your guard and let this home in" It's not my old home, in so many ways I am still mourning the loss of so many things in our life including our old house. But I so knew exactly what Kristen was talking about in that moment and something shifted.
I came home, told Chris and he jumped right on board. He senses how isolated I have become and not excited about hosting things in our home or being proud to show the world the space I have created for my family. So my new years resolution has begun. This home is a rental so we won't be taking down any walls or changing the big stuff like flooring and cabinets but I am committing to do what we can do to make this house feel just like us. To reflect my heart and creativity and to do it all on a MAJOR budget! I am excited and overwhelmed and a busy little bee over here and I can not wait to show you every step of the way!
So tomorrow is the first instalment of Ten on Ten for the year and I am looking forward to it! Hope you all will join me...I will be dusting off my camera for the first time in 2013!!
Happy New Year Friends, looking forward to all that it holds!
Also the winners of the Elevate the Everyday book giveaway are: Amber, PeaceMama and Katie Lenkeek! Send me your address rebekah(dot)gough(at)gmail(dot)com so we can get you your prize!