Reporting from the hospital again today. Still on bed rest but only a few days left until my scheduled c-section at the end of the week. It has been such a roller coaster of emotions the past few days. Not being with my family. Knowing that I will never again get to spend the night in our sweet home as a Mom to only three. Fear and worry about all that is to come and how we are ever going to pay for this long stay with surgeries and possible NICU visit...I have such a new and deep empathy for women who must stay on their back for long periods of pregnancy in the hospital. It so deeply exhausting being poked and prodded at all hours of the day and night and pumped with meds every time contractions start to increase. (praying for Diana Stone all of the time)
But I am so very thankful too. I know this is truly all for the best and that I am in the safest spot possible if something really bad should happen. The risks of this pregnancy to my health and the baby are pretty significant while he/she is in my uterus. Once the baby is born and we can begin the recovery process I know I will be so relieved.
Today a sweet woman came in from Knit for Life to offer me some supplies to keep my hands busy. It was a wonderful gift and reminder that God has designed this time for me to be still, to reflect on what is to come and to stir excitement and joy as I eagerly anticipate all that is about to unfold.
But you, O Lord, are a shield about me, My glory, your the lifter of my head. Psalm 3:3
Happy May Day!